Monday, July 14, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Saturday, March 8, 2014
God of our fasting, show us how our hunger unites us with those in need of bread, how letting go of life’s comforts can aid those lacking necessities for life. Amen.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
So what am I "doing" for Lent this year?
Well, my husband is REALLY going into the desert this year. He is giving up TV, junk food, meat and sleep (in order to wake up earlier and workout).
I, on the other hand, choose to be a little more vague. My lent this year will consist of no C's...Cookies, cakes, candy, chocolate etc. I am also going to have more "self control". This means that I will try not to argue with Alex, yell at Serena or eat/drink/gossip excessively. It seems like the easy way out, at least to Alex it does. For me though, I feel like this will make me ACTUALLY change my heart. 40 days of hard-core discipline will only make me rush back to it quicker. I admit I am a sinner. I do not think that I will be a brand new person after these 40 days...but I do hope and pray that Lent 2014 will make me a more relaxed and better adjusted person. Sometimes we all just need to simplify our lives.
I came across this article Why I'm Giving Up Giving Up Things this Year when I google searched "Lent". It kind of pissed me off. I feel like I am making the same point as the author of the article, but I agree with people's decisions to really dive deep, like Alex. It's just not for me, at this time in my life. But as this guy scoffs and makes jokes about giving up trivial things, it just comes across as arrogant. He can't be Catholic.
He's just not sure he "see's the value"....are you kidding me? It's just so sad that in our culture, we feel like we are exempt from trying to make ourselves better...more Christ-like.
His joke about "bringing about the kingdom of God by not eating Pop Tarts" is really rude. There are some people out there who probably have a Pop Tart problem. Maybe if more people stopped eating Pop Tarts to make themselves feel better, and in turn, prayed or opened the bible and worked on their faith...then they would be happier and healthier. Like I said, I am giving up the "C" sweets. What do I have to gain by doing that? More self-control. I know I have a problem with sweets. When I see a cupcake I justify why I DESERVE one. People, we don't DESERVE anything. That is what God is trying to tell us...we don't need these earthly desires to bind us...we don't need Pop Tarts to be happy.
If I take a step back and say "No Renee, you don't NEED a fatty delicious cupcake. What you do need is more faith. More trust in God's plan for me". I think I am meant to have more self-control. We all are. We are not animals. We are one big family of beautiful humans...who do not need to eat an abundance of Pop Tarts to be happy.
It seems that the point he is making is that we are not changing the world by these little things. This kind of thinking though, is what makes us feel so defeated all the time. We eat the damn Pop Tarts because we don't realize that each one of us, each "small" thing we do, is affecting our lives and the lives of others. Each moment we have is special to God. It should be special to us. Not eating the Pop Tarts is choosing to control our impulse to indulge is something that we do not need, something that tries to fill the God shaped hole.
I guess I just want to remind myself and others that Lent is important, that the things you choose to give up or add to your life ARE going to bring about the kingdom of God...at least within ourselves. That is a good start.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
My deal last night was that I worked a Junior League shift at an upscale fundraising event and I encountered some people who really irritated me. The event had ended and I was cleaning up the tables. A few of the couples that were still lingering were pissed because I was clearing their tables before they wanted me to. I got a lot of dirty sneers and a few of them made jokes or were angry about me cleaning up their drinks...which they had had too many of in my opinion. I guess I just felt inferior, even though I could have just as easily been on the other side of the fence. It just made me angry. I didn't know why I couldn't let it go, just laugh off their idiocy.
I shouldn't be judging them for judging me.
It's the #1 reason non-christians say they hate christians.
Christian or non-christian...no one has the right to judge others.
As I tell my almost 4 year old, "worry about yourself".
Read these while thinking about the last time you judged someone.
These are the readings for today, don't they just fit????:
Reading 1LV 19:1-2, 17-18
Reading 2 1 COR 3:16-23
Thursday, August 15, 2013
I have to admit that I didn't know it was a feast day until Alex mentioned mass this morning. #BadCatholic. But we made it to mass and I also managed to get my 3 year old to discuss it with me. On the way home from mass I saw this beautiful ray of light coming out of the clouds, even though the pic sucks, it was really beautiful.
I am reminded today of all the times I prayed to Mary during my pregnancy, to have a safe delivery. It was about the best one a woman could have...short of blacking out and waking up with baby in hand.
I feel very close to our blessed mother and she has been very good to me!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Friday, May 17, 2013
I am due on tuesday and this baby cannot come soon enough! Alex is annoyed that I am in a hurry, but he isn't carrying an extra 40 lbs...as well as experiencing back pain, contractions, fatigue, severe gas and heartburn. So fun. I have a lot of people praying for me and Lord knows I need it! I keep telling people, I would be fine to just sit around and wait for baby Cecilia to come, but taking care of a 3 year old and cleaning and cooking are not easy to do right now. Put me on bed rest and I would be happy to incubate another week. I am trying to enjoy these last days with just Serena...and I know I want a happy healthy baby, so I am trying to stay positive. Plus, I really don't WANT to give birth, I just want to be done with pregnancy. I know that every woman in their last week of pregnancy is miserable, I'm not special, but complaining is all I have people.
So like the song goes....say a little prayer for me.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Gossip is such a big sin of mine. I feel like since I don't have a job, I don't watch TV or listen to news on the radio all day, since I am home with a 3 year old...I have nothing to talk about except other people. It's usually not bad, it's mostly just what I consider "the truth", but I know that it's gossip either way. I think my ability to be interesting to other adults has dramatically plummeted in the last 3 years. What time I do spend on myself is usually not time spent enriching my brain with useful knowledge...it's taking my brain off any thing, especially since I have been pregnant. I know that gossip sucks. I realize as I am doing it, that I am being ridiculous...but it's so hard to stop. Pray for me that I can find a way to stick to my own business and stay positive.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Here is a Prayer I wanted to share with you: Thanks for Family & Friends Blessed are You, loving Father, For all your gifts to us. Blessed are You for giving us family and friends To be with us in times of joy and sorrow, To help us in days of need, And to rejoice with us in moments of celebration.. Father, We praise You for Your Son Jesus, Who knew the happiness of family and friends, And in the love of Your Holy Spirit. Blessed are you for ever and ever. Amen. Sent via iMissal http://www.imissal.com/markets.html
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Above is a link to an album on itunes, this band rocks! It's so hard to get into any current christian music, people are always telling me of good songs and bands but they all sound the same to me. I got lucky today and heard this band...and I actually like it! It's probably not for everyone, it's very indie, but I bet those of you who don't care for christian rock, will like this. Anyway, check it out.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
God knows the things that give us great joy and delight. God knows the people who we need to come into our path that will help form us and shape us.
— from Finding My Voice
Wow, how true is this quote. I am constantly reminded on a daily basis, how lucky I am to have such special people in my life. Since moving to Tallahassee a couple of years ago, I have made such awesome friendships, and they keep on coming! I meet people all the time that inspire me...as a mother, a christian and a community volunteer. I miss Orlando sometimes, because I still have so many people that I love there, but moving to a different city has really challenged me socially. I feel like I am open to meeting new people and because of that, I have an amazing support system. There is no shortage of people to complain to...lol. God truly knows what we need. He knew that I needed a great support system to help me to stay sane and positive as a stay-at-home mom. It's a tough job, especially emotionally....especially pregnant! So, thank you God for the people you give me and thank you friends and family for being there!