Rosary Thoughts

For awhile now, Alex and I have talked about saying the rosary together.  That hasn't happened.  After I converted, this past Easter, I tried to start getting into it.  That fell by the wayside.  Last night I decided to start again.  It takes me awhile, since I don't know any of the mysteries and don't have all the prayers memorized.  It felt really good!
  I have been struggling with keeping the faith lately, mostly because CRHP is winding down and I don't have any enrichment classes and I am having a hard time getting into any heavy catholic books.  I was doing so great in RCIA class, reading all the time and always improving my knowledge of the faith.  I am determined to not let go of the importance of improving my catholic faith.
I figured the rosary would be a good jump start.
While I was saying the rosary last night, I was meditating on the glorious mysteries and that got me thinking.  Ever since I converted, I have had a hard time feeling the Jesus love.  I mean, I love Jesus, but I don't feel as connected to him as I do to God, or even the blessed mother.  Actually, I have made the most connection with the blessed mother, probably because I am a mother...I relate.
I think the biggest obstacle in truly having a relationship with Christ, is that even though he was man, he was not a sinner.  Sin is the one thing I have focused on as a new Catholic.  To divulge my sins, to try not to sin, to repair myself from my sins.  Jesus is so great...I can not relate.

So, I guess in this year of faith, I need to figure out Jesus.
Any suggestions on a good book?  I have one that the Pope wrote, but it is TOUGH to read.  I need an idiots guide to Jesus.  I know, I know...read the bible.  The bible is not always so easy to connect with.
Thanks for any input :)

A new beginning

As my CRHP Team 42 comes to an end, it's hard not to be sad.  I met some awesome women who are now my close friends and I will miss the meetings tremendously.  For one, I was only a catholic for 1 week when I attended the retreat, so it was an invaluable experience because I got to know catholic women for the first time.  Getting to know them really solidified my decision to convert...they are amazing women with amazing faith.  As our fearless leaders have pointed out many times, it is not an ending, but a starting off point...to continue to go deeper in our faith and community.  This is a great time to end, with the Year of Faith starting off on Oct 11th (my mom's bday).  Do I think I will be as diligent to read my bible and increase my knowledge, as I have been during this CRHP process...probably not, but I will try! 
So as teams in the past have provided an amazing experience through our parish, I hope that our team can keep it alive, but more importantly, not lose touch.  It is so important to have people around you who share in your faith. 
So happy Year of Faith to all you catholics...and to the non-catholics...study your faith too!
Cheers to a prosperous year and to not letting the momentum die out.