I have been struggling with keeping the faith lately, mostly because CRHP is winding down and I don't have any enrichment classes and I am having a hard time getting into any heavy catholic books. I was doing so great in RCIA class, reading all the time and always improving my knowledge of the faith. I am determined to not let go of the importance of improving my catholic faith.
I figured the rosary would be a good jump start.
While I was saying the rosary last night, I was meditating on the glorious mysteries and that got me thinking. Ever since I converted, I have had a hard time feeling the Jesus love. I mean, I love Jesus, but I don't feel as connected to him as I do to God, or even the blessed mother. Actually, I have made the most connection with the blessed mother, probably because I am a mother...I relate.
I think the biggest obstacle in truly having a relationship with Christ, is that even though he was man, he was not a sinner. Sin is the one thing I have focused on as a new Catholic. To divulge my sins, to try not to sin, to repair myself from my sins. Jesus is so great...I can not relate.
So, I guess in this year of faith, I need to figure out Jesus.
Any suggestions on a good book? I have one that the Pope wrote, but it is TOUGH to read. I need an idiots guide to Jesus. I know, I know...read the bible. The bible is not always so easy to connect with.
Thanks for any input :)
