I have been struggling with keeping the faith lately, mostly because CRHP is winding down and I don't have any enrichment classes and I am having a hard time getting into any heavy catholic books. I was doing so great in RCIA class, reading all the time and always improving my knowledge of the faith. I am determined to not let go of the importance of improving my catholic faith.
I figured the rosary would be a good jump start.
While I was saying the rosary last night, I was meditating on the glorious mysteries and that got me thinking. Ever since I converted, I have had a hard time feeling the Jesus love. I mean, I love Jesus, but I don't feel as connected to him as I do to God, or even the blessed mother. Actually, I have made the most connection with the blessed mother, probably because I am a mother...I relate.
I think the biggest obstacle in truly having a relationship with Christ, is that even though he was man, he was not a sinner. Sin is the one thing I have focused on as a new Catholic. To divulge my sins, to try not to sin, to repair myself from my sins. Jesus is so great...I can not relate.
So, I guess in this year of faith, I need to figure out Jesus.
Any suggestions on a good book? I have one that the Pope wrote, but it is TOUGH to read. I need an idiots guide to Jesus. I know, I know...read the bible. The bible is not always so easy to connect with.
Thanks for any input :)
"I need an idiots guide to Jesus." I can't tell you how many times I've thought the exact same thing. :)
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Continue to persevere!! Your desire for a deeper relationship with Jesus and prayer will truly carry you forward. Do not lose heart and do not put pressure on yourself- the Lord is at work within you :). Also the Rosary is such a powerful prayer, continue to pray it. As well as the daily mysteries, I also like to offer up each decade for a special intention dear to my heart..this adds to the experience of praying the Rosary and is quite amazing :)
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I started looking for stuff for you, but honestly, you can't go wrong with Scott Hahn, or his wife Kimberly Hahn's book. I read a couple of Scott's books and they're so simple, but very informative.
ReplyDeleteI've always been Catholic and he converted so it was refreshing for me to see it from his eyes.
http://www.dwightlongenecker.com/Content/Pages/Articles/CatholicIssues/WhyAFormerEvangleicalLovesTheRosary.asp