Minute Meditation 2/7/12

The Holy Spirit is the vehicle by which we leave off the old self bound by sin, slavery, fear and egoism, and embrace the new, open to grace and freedom and love.

— from Making Sense of God
From AmericanCatholic.org

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This pregnancy has been super tough on my spiritual life.  It has been such a struggle to step outside of myself and try to focus on my faith.  I find it so hard to spend any amount of time in prayer or reflection.  There have been some really really bad days, where I just feel like I have lost myself altogether, like I am not me...just an incubator and a wife and a babysitter.  I know that sounds awful, but I can't help these damn hormones!  Literally, thank God for Sundays.  I would love to go to daily mass more, but it's so hard to take a 2 year old.  
Woe is me....lol.
Enough of the pity party...see what I'm talking about?
I like this quote because when I was going through my conversion, the Holy Spirit was what really kept me motivated and made me feel like my faith was the most important part of me.  I really need to go to confession soon, it always helps with the "old self" issues and the egoism.  I am sadly, not looking forward to lent this year, I don't want to give up something stupid, I want to focus on getting my faith back on track, but I doubt my ability to follow through.  I was thinking of saying the rosary every day, which I don't do now.  I was thinking maybe going to daily mass at least once a week.  I haven't figured it out, but I am really hoping that I can make an effort this lent...stay on track.    

 

Minute Meditation 1/3/12

In Faith We have the gift of faith, the supernatural ability to believe what God has revealed, to trust him for everything, and to expect him to intervene in our lives. — from Living the Sacraments ********************* Faith is so positive, but I always feel like I have to keep my faith to myself, like it's a negative thing.  Why has religion become such a hot button subject?  Faith in your religion, any religion, should be discussed with joy and understanding and love.  I should be proud to tell my friends and family about my faith, mostly because it makes me happy and content.  My loved ones only want me to be happy, and so they should be overjoyed to hear about my faith and how it is affecting me positively.  Faith in anything is always a great thing.  We should all make sure that we keep our faith and are not ashamed to share it.

Minute Meditation

Devotion to Angels 

If we sincerely want to do the right thing, angels can help us. So we should cultivate a devotion to the guardian angels. They're powerful spiritual beings who want us to succeed at being good. They want us to end up in heaven. 

— from Angels of God

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I get emails daily, from americancatholic.org, which I found through my parish's website, of "minute meditations".  It's basically the smallest and laziest way to have at least one moment of your day be about god.  I love it.  It would be nice if we could all be like Jesus all day, but that is not really possible for most of us.  I am taking this one day at a time, after all, we are all just sinners.  I am not in any way content in being a sinner, but I am aware that I am, and that is progress right?  

Today's minute meditation is not one that I can really meditate on...yet.  I have not been schooled in the ways of angels in my RCIA class yet, so this is something I will need to seek knowledge of.  I am just now getting the whole "saints" thing, which I am devouring books on, and really enjoying.  I am a little sad that I didn't have all these saints to look up to as a child, growing up protestant.  But, a family friend of ours a catholic, recently told me that the way I am going about it, is the right way.  She meant, that I am an adult, finding out the true meanings and teachings, and actually learning them and enjoying them fully.  I think that's what she meant.  So, angels will be my new task.