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Welcome! I invite you to follow and share my spiritual journey into the Catholic Faith. I am using this blog to share my studies and musings on converting to Catholicism.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Notes on the retreat

Food!

Me and Heather

stations of the cross, still haven't figured it out

view of stations of the cross outside

St. Thomas More, Tallahassee FL


St. Thomas More Tallahassee, FL
The woman's day of renewal I attended on Saturday was very uplifting.  I am glad I went.  I sort of had a breakthrough, as cheesy as it sounds, and I realized a lot about myself and the ability to pray and listen to God.  Father Tim gave 3 discussions, each one on the 3 Pillars of Lent; Prayer, Fasting and Alms-giving.  Mainly the day was for reflection and prayer and he talked about this analogy of the desert.  The desert being a place we shy away from with distractions like TV and that the desert within us is a place of thirst  and unrest, where we need to go to face ourselves and receive God's love and guidance.  I am paraphrasing here.  On fasting, he connected it to prayer and explained that we fast to obtain Jesus.  That we should be giving up our distractions and realizing that we don't need these things, we need God.  Father Tim joked about the things he gave up in the past and how giving up chocolate isn't really what God wants.  I am glad I gave up Facebook, that is a huge distraction and I have realized that I don't need it.  His third talk was about alms-giving  and that it's not just about giving to the poor, it is about praying and fasting and then giving our whole selves to others and especially God.  We are vessels of the love of God and when we give our selves to others (not sexually) but in time, talent and treasure, others can feel God's love as we do.  He summed it up by saying that prayer, fasting and alsm-giving go together and that when we practice these 3 things, it makes it easier for us to give love, that is what God is all about.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Women's Day of Renewal

Today I am going the another Parish, the co-cathedral of St. Thomas More, a beautiful church here in Tallahassee, for a Women's Day of Renewal.   This is the first event of this type that I will have ever attended.  I am really excited.  Father Tim, our young Father who is my age and went to school with a lot of my friends, will be the moderator.  I wish you all could hear him speak, he is uplifting and humble and funny.  I imagine there will be some women speakers too.  There will be breakfast and lunch, my kind of renewal.  There will also be mass and reconciliation, although I cannot take communion...I am so close!  I only have 2 more RCIA classes.  This is a very exciting time for my faith.  I also started reading a really good book, I will post on that later.  I am so lucky to have such an awesome church family and diocese, I am really feeling the love lately.  There are so many opportunities in our diocese for growth and renewal.  I hope that you can attend something like this in the near future.  I know I will have a great experience.
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On another note, with my lenten prayers, I am now praying for my best friend Suesan's brother Wayne who passed away at a young age of illness and also my brother's girlfriend's father.  I am so sorry for their losses, but one thing I love about the catholic church, is that the soul never dies and one day it will be reunited with our healthy bodies.  Our deceased loved ones are all around us and we can pray for them, even after death. 
This is a good daily minute meditation I got in my email from americancatholic.org:

Beyond Words

Just as our interpersonal relationships—whether they be with family, friends, or lovers—require us to communicate our whole selves beyond mere words, so too our relationship with God requires us to communicate our whole selves to our Creator.

— from Dating God

Saturday, March 17, 2012

St. Patricks Day 2012


A poem/prayer for St. Patricks day that I downloaded on my Nook:
The Saint's Day
Irishmen! Once more our day has come round.  This day our people greet where'er they're found, whether in the palace, or the humblest cot, to them 'tis all the same.  It matters not.  Today; they ne'er feel weary, sad or faint, for 'tis the birthday of our patron saint!
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I have not been blogging much, my computer crashed and is being worked on, but I am told it is better than ever now, triple the memory and speed and whatever can be done to make it awesome.  I can't wait to get it back.  Serena turned 2 last weekend, then got really sick, both of us, so we are getting over a cold/allergies/ear infection and also her teething.  Deacon Mike said on wednesday that he got sick and he hadn't stuck to his lent offerings, so he was joking that he got sick as penance.  I am sure that is why I did too.  I haven't been on facebook, which I gave up, but I also have not been praying as much as I should.  Things have been super busy on the home front. 
Here is the daily info sent to me from my saint of the day email from americancatholic.org, of course the saint of the day is...St. Patrick!  I admit I think St. Patricks day is for drinking green beer and chasing leprechauns, but I know that it is based on a real person, one that I should know about, respect and emulate.  Here is the info.
PS
Serena was due on St. Patricks day, so she is my little clover.

St. Patrick
(415?-493?)
Listen to Saint of the Day
Legends about Patrick abound; but truth is best served by our seeing two solid qualities in him: He was humble and he was courageous. The determination to accept suffering and success with equal indifference guided the life of God’s instrument for winning most of Ireland for Christ. Details of his life are uncertain. Current research places his dates of birth and death a little later than earlier accounts. Patrick may have been born in Dunbarton, Scotland, Cumberland, England, or in northern Wales. He called himself both a Roman and a Briton. At 16, he and a large number of his father’s slaves and vassals were captured by Irish raiders and sold as slaves in Ireland. Forced to work as a shepherd, he suffered greatly from hunger and cold.
After six years, Patrick escaped, probably to France, and later returned to Britain at the age of 22. His captivity had meant spiritual conversion. He may have studied at Lerins, off the French coast; he spent years at Auxerre, France, and was consecrated bishop at the age of 43. His great desire was to proclaim the Good News to the Irish.
In a dream vision it seemed “all the children of Ireland from their mothers’ wombs were stretching out their hands” to him. He understood the vision to be a call to do mission work in pagan Ireland. Despite opposition from those who felt his education had been defective, he was sent to carry out the task. He went to the west and north, where the faith had never been preached, obtained the protection of local kings and made numerous converts.
Because of the island’s pagan background, Patrick was emphatic in encouraging widows to remain chaste and young women to consecrate their virginity to Christ. He ordained many priests, divided the country into dioceses, held Church councils, founded several monasteries and continually urged his people to greater holiness in Christ.
He suffered much opposition from pagan druids and was criticized in both England and Ireland for the way he conducted his mission.
In a relatively short time the island had experienced deeply the Christian spirit, and was prepared to send out missionaries whose efforts were greatly responsible for Christianizing Europe.
Patrick was a man of action, with little inclination toward learning. He had a rocklike belief in his vocation, in the cause he had espoused.
One of the few certainly authentic writings is his Confessio, above all an act of homage to God for having called Patrick, unworthy sinner, to the apostolate.
There is hope rather than irony in the fact that his burial place is said to be in County Down in Northern Ireland, long the scene of strife and violence.
Comment:
What distinguishes Patrick is the durability of his efforts. When one considers the state of Ireland when he began his mission work, the vast extent of his labors (all of Ireland) and how the seeds he planted continued to grow and flourish, one can only admire the kind of man Patrick must have been. The holiness of a person is known only by the fruits of his or her work.
Quote:
“Christ shield me this day: Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me, Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me, Christ on my right, Christ on my left, Christ when I lie down, Christ when I arise, Christ in the heart of every person who thinks of me, Christ in the eye that sees me, Christ in the ear that hears me” (from “The Breastplate of St. Patrick”).

Saturday, March 3, 2012

An American Saint

This was the saint of the day email I received today.  She was an amazing lady, and young lady.

Saturday, March 03, 2012
St. Katharine Drexel
(1858-1955)
Listen to Saint of the Day
If your father is an international banker and you ride in a private railroad car, you are not likely to be drawn into a life of voluntary poverty. But if your mother opens your home to the poor three days each week and your father spends half an hour each evening in prayer, it is not impossible that you will devote your life to the poor and give away millions of dollars. Katharine Drexel did that. She was born in Philadelphia in 1858. She had an excellent education and traveled widely. As a rich girl, she had a grand debut into society. But when she nursed her stepmother through a three-year terminal illness, she saw that all the Drexel money could not buy safety from pain or death, and her life took a profound turn.
She had always been interested in the plight of the Indians, having been appalled by what she read in Helen Hunt Jackson’s A Century of Dishonor. While on a European tour, she met Pope Leo XIII and asked him to send more missionaries to Wyoming for her friend Bishop James O’Connor. The pope replied, “Why don’t you become a missionary?” His answer shocked her into considering new possibilities.
Back home, Katharine visited the Dakotas, met the Sioux leader Red Cloud and began her systematic aid to Indian missions.
She could easily have married. But after much discussion with Bishop O’Connor, she wrote in 1889, “The feast of St. Joseph brought me the grace to give the remainder of my life to the Indians and the Colored.” Newspaper headlines screamed “Gives Up Seven Million!”
After three and a half years of training, she and her first band of nuns (Sisters of the Blessed Sacrament for Indians and Colored) opened a boarding school in Santa Fe. A string of foundations followed. By 1942 she had a system of black Catholic schools in 13 states, plus 40 mission centers and 23 rural schools. Segregationists harassed her work, even burning a school in Pennsylvania. In all, she established 50 missions for Indians in 16 states.
Two saints met when Katharine was advised by Mother Cabrini about the “politics” of getting her Order’s Rule approved in Rome. Her crowning achievement was the founding of Xavier University in New Orleans, the first Catholic university in the United States for African Americans.
At 77, she suffered a heart attack and was forced to retire. Apparently her life was over. But now came almost 20 years of quiet, intense prayer from a small room overlooking the sanctuary. Small notebooks and slips of paper record her various prayers, ceaseless aspirations and meditation. She died at 96 and was canonized in 2000.
Comment:
Saints have always said the same thing: Pray, be humble, accept the cross, love and forgive. But it is good to hear these things in the American idiom from one who, for instance, had her ears pierced as a teenager, who resolved to have “no cake, no preserves,” who wore a watch, was interviewed by the press, traveled by train and could concern herself with the proper size of pipe for a new mission. These are obvious reminders that holiness can be lived in today’s culture as well as in that of Jerusalem or Rome.
Quote:
“The patient and humble endurance of the cross—whatever nature it may be—is the highest work we have to do.” “Oh, how far I am at 84 years of age from being an image of Jesus in his sacred life on earth!” (St. Katharine Drexel)
(This entry appears in the print edition of Saint of the Day.)